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StealthySquirrel
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Name: tricia
Location: California, United States
Birthday: 5/18/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: listening to music, playing guitar, hanging out with friends, talking to squirrels, destroying things, playing with fire, & causing chaos >=]
Expertise: being myself, music, but definately NOT the ladies...
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  stealthysquirr3l
Member Since:
5/11/2004
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| Home Grown "Cross My Heart"
I haven't had a sober night ever since you left me.
And my days don't start until the sun goes down,
a vampire draining every bottle. They're I have to quench
these memories, these memories of you.
It's all that I can do.
I cross my heart and hope to die
Stick every needle in these eyes
Inject this air into my veins
If it would bring you back to me
I'd rip my heart out of my chest
And make your room a crimson mess
I'd do it all with no regrets
If it would bring you back to me
This is how I feel. . .
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not so good. .
listening to:
Hidden In Plain View - 20 Below
lyrics:
This puzzled look you stare to me says
"You put me back together"
Her head's down, she waits impatiently
Scattered in my heart, torn up and ripped apart
It's ripped apart..
And I know, I should have known
By the times she looked at me
Brace yourself
Strength finds a place in me
Just wait and you'll see, you're everything I want
And don't take this from me
Just wait and you'll see, you're everything I want
Don't take this from me now
Wind strong in my face, I'm still staggering through
I'm closer to the ground than I will ever get to you
Dirt deep beneath my fingernails, I'm gripping to the floor
I'm searching through the world, always looking for something more
Just wait and and see, you're everything I want
And don't take this from me
Just wait and and see, you're everything I want
Don't take this from me now
And these cold winter nights, without you next to me
It feels like twenty below
Frostbite on my heart
This pain and suffering are feelings that you don't know
Does it feel like, feel like twenty below 1. I hate knowing that we'll never be best friends again. . . I hate knowing that we'll never be friends again period. All this because of one little change. How could our friendship be blown over so easily? Did it mean that little to you? I miss you and how you were always there for me, ready to listen or cheer me up. I miss our late night phone conversations. I miss just sitting around watching TV with you. I miss listening to music in my garage and having heart to heart conversations. I miss being your best friend. I miss hearing you say "Without you I'd be dead". I miss how you always made me feel special and loved. I miss your hugs. I miss you. I hate the fact that I'm still dwelling upon this. I hate how I still miss hanging out with you and being friends. I hate always feeling like we can't be friends. I hate how now and then I still think about you and wonder what happened to us. . .
2. What's going on? Why are you being such a jerk lately? Did I piss you off or something? You're always teasing me, pushing me around, or giving me a hard time. If you're mad at me just fucking say it already. I'm tired of making up excuses for why you're always treating me like shit. One minute you're super nice to me, the next you're calling me names like "asshole" or "bitch" for no God damn reason. If your reasoning is "I only say that 'cause you say it," then pay close attention to the next time we hang out. Even if I'm the one that starts calling you names first, you're the one that's mean to begin with. I really wish you'd stop being so mean to me. . .
3. Why the hell do you keep lying to me? I know you'll insist that you're not or that you "really mean it", but we both know that's a load of BS. It's getting harder and harder for me to believe you when you say "I love you". More and more it's starting to seem like those three words mean absolutely nothing to you.It's a waste of my time and quite frankly, it's breaking my heart. Why can't you just be honest with me for once. Tell me that you don't feel the same way. Stop leading me on. Stop letting me think you love me. Stop letting me wait for you. Stop letting me love you. . . | | |
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bored
listening to:
Plans For Revenge - Knife For My Neighbor
lyrics:
You must think I'm crazy. These past few days & your alibi.
If you'd listen to me one more time I'm sure you'd like all you'd hear
And if you'd seen through my eyes as I watched you go,
Behind my back. No one knows [like I don't know a thing]
I've watched you hate me & I've watched you go
So there's not much left to say when I already know your story,
but you'll play your games all night long. Now I've got you where I want you
I could never let this go. I could never let you know
that if you'd listen to me one more time, if you'd just listen
So take this knife & twist it in my back. . .
Hey everyone. Well I'm updating again. For starters, I went to Marine World on Saturday, so that was fun stuff. I got to spend the day with Kevino, Rachel, Alyson, & Megan. We had a blast!! We kept cracking up at the most random things. I rode some kick ass rollercoasters. Medusa was way cool. I got to see the aminals =] Sunday I went to AJ's for dinner, hung out with Melanie, Manuel, Destiny, Kevin, Sean, & Rachel, & watched Labyrinth, which I will probably watch again today. Monday [yesterday] I went to this volunteer orientation at LPCH [Lucile Packard's Children's Hospital]. There was this adorkable boy who was eating these cornnuts all loud. He kept making these wierd imprints on his arm using his pen. He was so cute =] I hope I can see him again. Me & Huong got lost and wandered around outside the hospital for half an hour before finding my mom. After we dropped off Huong I went home and stayed up till 5:30 am. Now I have to go fill out a bunch of forms for my interview on Thursday. Bye now.
07.22.04 | Interview at LPCH
07.23.04 | Leaving for camping w/ the family
07.25.04 | Returning from camping
07.26.04 | Campbell Gaslighter !! [AFST, To Navigate, American Ave., A Break From Breathing, & Brea]
Pretty, huh? I took this picture =]
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| Okay, Huong told me to update. I'll make this quick 'cause I Love The 90s will be on shortly. I went to Glow on Sunday with Huong, Rachel, Ari, & Rob. Shane & Aaron went too, but Aaron couldn't get in because he was wearing sweats so him & Shane just hung out in Sunnyvale. We just danced it up. . . Ari met up with one of her friends & they danced & hung out. Me, Huong, Rachel & Rob hung out with eachother for the rest of the night. Ari & Rob left early, but Ari had a good birthday, I'm assuming =P Huong & Rachel kept dancing on the tables & eventually they got me to join in. Hahaha. . . I think we're going again. That was fun times. Yesterday I went to band practice & Jason's & hung out with the guys. . . Now, here's some pictures.
Rachel, me, Huong & Ari
Same order, different picture
Almost Close !! Tommy, Jason, Stephen & Aaron
Oh, check out Almost Close@MySpace, now with music =] Check out the tunes, add them, drop a comment and/or message. That's all for now. . . Bye!!
07.15.04 | Great Mall? [still planning]
07.16.04 | Great Mall to watch Cinderella Story [still planning]
07.23.04 | Leaving for camping w/ the family
07.25.04 | Returning from camping
07.26.04 | Campbell Gaslighter !! [AFST, To Navigate, American Ave. + more] | | |
| Picture Time !!
Destiny [aka Baby D]
Me & Rach
Me & Destiny
My sister Alyson & me
Smoochy with the fish =P
I have more, but what I really want are the Warped pictures =[ | | |
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